Being truthful

My apologies for not posting yesterday, but unfortunately the litigate part of eatrunlitigate got the better of me and I worked a 15.5 hour day (I was actually at a mediation and we were there until 12:30 a.m.! I’m happy to report it settled!).  I got home at 12:40 a.m. and had to be out of the house by 8 a.m. this morning (for another mediation that went much shorter, thankfully), clearly leaving zero time to blog.

The good news about yesterday is that I woke up at 6:30 a.m. just in case mediation went late leaving me with no time to run (wonder if I jinxed myself?). I ended up running 5 miles before the sun even rose. It was fabulous.

What was not so fabulous about yesterday was my eating . I am pretty sure that I have written this exact post before, but here I go again.  I have no willpower when it comes to eating. Yesterday for lunch Jimmy John’s was ordered. I was good and ordered my sandwich without mayo. The sandwich had about 536 calories. Would have been completely happy with that.

But I didn’t stop there.

Nope. You see…when Jimmy John’s caters they give you chips and a cookie.

Now, obviously the smart, weight loss minded person would have just thrown away the cookie and chips.

But not me, nope. I ate them. Both of them. That’s an additional 560 calories. Yep, more than the sandwich.  I ate over 1,000 calories in one meal.

I guess the only good news is that I didn’t eat much for dinner (someone picked up a salad for me but I only had time to eat a few bites). However, this is still not acceptable. I have no willpower. Thankfully I do have willpower when it comes to working out. I just need to spread that vibe to eating.I think, unfortunately, this might mean that I have to go back to calorie counting. I don’t like having to do it, but why do I have these feelings? Probably because counting calories means that when I eat too much I have to enter it into the calorie counter and see my failure.

Now, M and I are still doing well by not eating out for dinner and the meals we are cooking are pretty healthy, but if I want to get rid of this last 20 to 30 pounds, I have to have willpower.

I am not looking forward to weighing in tomorrow, but in the event that I gain weight, instead of being bummed out and trying to eat my way out of the mood, I will seize the day and not continue to have no control over what goes in my body.

Eat: 2 donuts (yeah, no willpower); grilled cheese and tomato; and Baked Rigatoni Zucchini. Okay day.

Run: Workout A of Stage 1. The pushups seemed extra hard today and I am terrible at the prone jack knife (different name, same exercise) but now completely understand why they start you on two sets of 8. I think I had beginners luck the first time I did the exercises so they weren’t quite as bad. I also watched a video about pushups earlier this week and was concentrating more on form today so I’m sure that’s why they were harder.

3 comments to Being truthful

  • Loving how often you’re blogging. You’re doing great! Focus on the positives a little more and don’t be so hard on yourself. :)

    By the way, want to go on a run next week when I’m there? We may not have much energy the morning after the concert, but I think it would be good for us (by us, I mean me). I have a horrible time getting off my routine when I travel.

  • I had one of those days today where I just ate too much. I just love food and there are those days when I have no self control. Some days really are better than others.

    Those prone jackknives are hard! I fell off the ball the first time I did them. I am sure that was good for a laugh at the gym.

    You just have to dust off and get back at it!

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