Sad truth #1: I haven’t been on track with my diet for a consistent period of longer than 5 days in months.
Sad truth #2: I haven’t followed a work out plan in weeks. I make them, but I don’t actually follow them. And I already won’t be following this weeks as I didn’t work out tonight because I didn’t have time I was too lazy. I choose instead
Sad truth #3: I have been eating out more and more every week. I was doing okay for a while there, but today I ate a 251 wrap for lunch and sushi for dinner. Both were delicious, but both will not help me lose any weight
Sad truth #4: I weighed myself tonight and I am back to where I was when I wrote this post. That was over a month ago.
Sad truth #5: I have really started to think about where my food comes from. I don’t think its coincidental that as the ingredients of our food have become more and more unpronounceable that cases of infertility, cancer, and other random diseases and problems have been on the rise. I have all kinds of excuses for why I let myself eat that crap (ease, affordability, etc.) but the main reason I eat is because it tastes good. Well that’s the worst reason of them all. It tastes good because it is fake and synthetic. If I am really doing this weight loss/fitness kick in order to get healthier than I need to actually consider my health. I am ignoring my health if I eat random chemicals because they taste good or are easy to make.
If I plan to actually lose weight and get beyond this plateau I have been at for several months I will never reach my goal, so here I go again. I am like a freaking broken record around me.
New reality #1: It doesn’t matter how good something tastes or how it easy it is to make. I need to know what is going into my body. I am going to start eating clean. This means I will primarily be eating fruits and vegetables, lean meats, dairy, etc. The real key is that if there is an ingredient list on the package I need to read it and know what each ingrediet is. If I don’t, I’m not eating it. Period.
New reality #2: I am back to counting calories. 1500 maximum per day (with some calculations on days with long work outs to make sure I do not do harm to my body by significant calorie deficiencies). No more wishy-washy range. No more skipping days when it’s convenient. I need to lose some weight and I’m going to quit pretending that I’m okay with the weight I am at right now. Sure I’m happy that I am not the weight I was. But I am not yet satisfied with where I am. I will be honest and say that the major reason for this is for appearance reasons, but I also know that the weight loss will aid in increasing my speed in both biking and running…and probably swimming as well!
New reality #3: I am going to make a work out plan every week and I am going to make that work out happen. I think I need to look at my work schedule more as I figure out my work out schedule so that my work out plan can be realistic. I also need to get back in the swing of working out in the morning. I think when I was the most successful at my weight loss when I was working out several mornings a week.
New reality #4: Lolly-gagging my way through this has not been working. No more lolly-gagging. Tomorrow, a Tuesdsay, which some may think isn’t the best day to start is going to be the start for me.
New reality #5: Back to daily posts. I would ideally like to do three posts a day. I’m going to work out the logistics, but I have a catchy idea for the various entries. I think it may work, but I’ve gotta figure out if I really have it in me to do three posts a day.
I know what you mean about going "back to counting calories." Sometimes, it's the only way. It's never easy, and work makes it hard. I look forward to your posts… it's all about balance. Don't beat yourself up for needing a range of calories. 1400 to 1600 might work too. Good luck!!